As a high school teacher, there are a lot of challenges I need to face. Education is not an easy thing for us to do, in particular for me. I hope I can become a professional and wonderful teacher in the future since I was a little girl. Actually, in my elementary and high school studying life, my teachers often asked me to do the pupil teacher to teach my classmates and my classmates all like to resort to me when they had some problems on studies. In fact, I considerably enjoyed it because I was so excited about this fact that I can help others with my limited knowledge. Therefore, I seize any opportunity to accumulate my teaching experience in the following days. And these experiences make me understand many different learning styles and acknowledge the necessity for diverse teaching methods because every student is unparalleled individual. I should pay respect to their learning right by using the diverse teaching method. Just like my former teachers did for us.

I encountered many nice and fantastic teachers in my studying road, and they all had a big influence on me. Because of their affirmative attitude and encouragement, I had much more confidence toward myself. Therefore, I eternally hope for that I can pass those strengths and courage along our next generation. However, there is a huge distance between ideal and reality.

This is the first year I became an English teacher in my school. As a matter of fact, when I knew I had opportunity to make my dream- being a teacher- come true, I rejoiced with wild excitement. With the belief that I am a hard-working, considerate, patient, passionate and attentive person, I promised to my self I can be qualified for it. Thence, I believe I can be a good friend to my dear students. I will be careful to notice their needs both mentally and studies and they are more willing to consult with me whenever they encounter troubles.

Nevertheless, just like I said before “There is a huge distance between ideal and reality.” Because the dividing way which divides students into different class depends on their learning capability in our school, the new teacher like me usually is assigned to teacher those children. I don’t have any discrimination and prejudice against these children. But I had to admit that I don’t know how to treat them in the beginning because I really don’t understand what they are thinking about. I had thousands of questions toward them-“Why do you have so strange thoughts?” “Why don’t you concentrate on your studies?” “Why do you keep asking the same question after I just said it?” “Why do you have so low motivation for studies?”. Thence, I felt frustrated and sad toward my students. And then I started to get lost in my teaching. The only thing I can do is push them to have higher score at any cost. I became quite easier to lose my temper and I discovered other teachers used diverse punishment to warn those children and to keep them quiet. To my sadness, I am so scared that I will become one of these teachers who don’t have any “education love”, passion and patience. It’s not my original intention. I was almost out of control because of their endless problems and troubles. And I was under so serious pressure because I didn’t have ability to teach them and make them get good performance on studies. I wondered if I should take aggressive punishments to treat my students. The former experiences from other teachers showed me its great effect.

However, some students changed me mind and prevented me from doing it. They are not smart children and don’t learn very well on my English class. But I see their “attitude” toward English class. They always took notes very carefully in my class and finished their homework on time. They will try their best to write the test even though they cannot get the highest grade in class. They reminded me of my seriousness toward my life. That’s my promise toward my students. As a teacher, we have to try any positive way to make our students have motivation for learning and to make them cherish their learning rights. Now, I usually reflect on myself at night. Students who never make mistake are not students any more. I should learn to guide them to the correct learning road in the positive way, not use incorrect tricks to force them just for proving the teachers’ teaching ability. Only when we pay much respect to those cute students can “education love” pass along from one generation to another.